Today is my day off this week (I don't work M-F like normal people!) and I was really looking forward to the day and just having some time to maybe go shopping. I've been wanting to buy a sewing machine for months, and I worked loads of overtime so far this year so I have money, but now it comes to it I don't feel like it.
I'd forgotten how stressful trying to conceive is. Since the ectopic last year we've been on a break, and to be honest our sex life has been close to non-existent, as I've been feeling 'what's the point' and my husband I think has been terrified that we'd have another ectopic. But after getting possibly good news at the HSG we thought we'd give it a try this month.
I'm now 7dpo, which I know is still several days too early to test, but I have already tested yesterday and today. Both BFN of course. I really shouldn't have hpts in the house (internet cheapies, and I only have 1 left).
The money side of things is stressing me a little as well. So far things have been manageable, but now we're heading into IUI/IVF territory I'm getting more worried.
I'm also symptom spotting like crazy - which is also completely stupid as there would be none showing up at this point anyway. But I'm not sleeping because of the stress so I'm tired all the time, and I have to keep telling myself that the tiredness is not pregnancy.
Also, last night I ate a giant steak, buffalo riblets, a chocolate brownie ice cream thing and a few glasses of wine. I feel like a pig and I look fat this morning.