Wandering the double mazes of infertility and living in a foreign culture.
Saturday, 14 May 2011
This post was meant for yesterday but as blogger was down all day...
This has been a very frustrating 2WW so far for several reasons. First off, I actually have no idea when I ovulated, how many follies I had (though it wouldn't have been more than two) and etc etc. I had no idea that a non-monitored cycle would be so stressful. I could be anywhere between 6 to 8 days dpo, so symptom spotting, knowing whether to POAS is very confusing and frustrating.
Secondly, and I am aware that this is a little stupid, but there are so many ladies IVF cycling on exactly the same days that I somehow got it in my head that I was on the same calendar as them. Everyone is having their beta tests now, so I kind of thought that I should be close to a possible testing date by now, which in reality I am not. I am actually about a week behind them.
Blogger being down was very weird yesterday, as I hadn't realised how caught up I was in other people's lives until there is nothing new to read and I wasn't able to comment on people's posts. I found myself really worrying about people. For example Princess Wahna Bea Mama had posted her great beta test results earlier in the day, before the blogger outage. Later I clicked back to see if I could comment, but the post had disappeared! Oh my god, I thought, what's happened? Has the worst happened and she's removed the post? It took me a while to realise that all of the posts from the previous days had disappeared on nearly everyone's blogs. Phew!
As I wasn't able to read blogs all day I went out and did something else. In the end, I went shopping for skirts for work. Instead I bought 2 pairs of cut off trousers and ended up in a cat cafe. In case you don't know, a cat cafe is a place where you go and drink coffee, with about 20 cats. You're allowed to feed and pet the cats, but not pick them up. Here are some photos I took with my iPhone
It was a lot of fun, but the cats were all spoiled and only wanted to play with people who had treats for them. I also didn't hear any of them purring at all. There was one guy, called Sweet Potato (고구마) who really reminded me of the velociraptors in Jurassic Park. Whenever I tried to give a treat to another cat he would literally knock that cat's head out the way and steal the treat. My own cat at home is much cuter and playful and I'm allowed to pick him up. My cat is not a pedigree, and has a weird eye gunk problem, but he's loveable. I felt so guilty about playing with the other cats I went on to spent $35 on a toy that so far he won't play with.
In other news, I tried to get over my superstition about the pregnancy seat on the bus. On Korean public transport they have special priority seats, as they do in nearly every country in the world. On a Korean bus there are not only priority seats, but also a special pink pregnancy seat (as in the picture above). In the past I have tried not to sit in the seat, worrying about tempting fate as I wasn't pregnant. Yesterday I decided I was being an idiot, and so sat down.