Sunday, 22 January 2012

Happy New Year

Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

I hope the year of the dragon brings you happiness and, if like me you're still stuck in limbo, a BFP and successful pregnancy.

Monday, 16 January 2012

A successful appointment

Today's appointment in bullets, as it's nearly 11pm and I just got home from work:

  • Dr K said he had expected to 'make it easily' the previous cycles, and he seemed sorry it wasn't the case.
  • I was very determined and remembered all my questions.
  • We're going to down-reg for 2 weeks (or so) before starting stimms. He says it will suppress my natural hormones and hopefully stop my period from coming so early. Also I assume I will be on aspirin and whatever the other drugs were last time.
  • The best bit: We can go for 5 day embryos! Obviously it depends on whether the embryos make it that far, but as I thought the clinic only did 3 day transfers I'm very, very pleased with this.
  • Go back on Feb 1st for an ultrasound to check for ovulation and start downregging.
I still don't feel confident that we will get pregnant, but I'm happy with how this appointment went.

Thursday, 12 January 2012

Rats, Rats and Double Rats!

Well, CD1 finally arrives and I call my clinic to make an appointment. I'm supposed to make an appointment for Day 3 of the cycle, Saturday, except... my doctor isn't there on Saturday. I can see another doctor if I want...

Hmmm - no, I'd prefer to see the doctor who has done my previous cycles with me and knows how my body reacts. I'm very aware of the statistical failure rate of IVF and I don't blame the doctor when it doesn't work.

My doctor's not in til Monday. Make an appointment which will put me on cycle day 5. B*ggery rats.

This isn't the end of the world however, as next weekend and the start of next week is a national holiday called Sollal. It's Chinese New Year and it is one of two times a year when Korean actually *stops* (think Christmas). In terms of dates, that would probably mean that the point where I would need to be monitored regularly and triggered would be during this holiday. It might even mean that egg retrieval would fall on the holiday. Chances are the clinic wouldn't be operating properly at this time.

I shall go to my Monday appointment with questions in mind about what we can do differently this cycle to hopefully make it work. Question number 1: What are you going to change in the treatment plan this time around? Question number 2: Is there any possibility to try to take any embryos to Day 5?

I'm also not sure whether to ask to increase the stimms dose to try to make as many eggs as possible as we would have more frozen embryos.

Any other questions I could ask? Bearing in mind that I've already been through one frozen and one fresh and so I don't need to ask about procedural stuff.

Sunday, 1 January 2012

2012... meh.

Happy New Year Everyone!

I am in a pretty dark place ttc wise at the moment. One of the first things I saw this morning on checking Facebook were people making pregnancy announcements. Dark dark place.

We are planning to start IVF#2 in my next cycle in January. That's the plan at the moment anyway. To be honest I'm not sure how much about it I will report on this blog. I am also fairly sure I'm not in a place to be too involved in the 'community' at present. I can't deal with all the successes when all we seem to get is failure.

It seems at the moment that within the last year everyone who I was on the journey with have got their BFPs. I am the last woman standing at the beginning of 2012, and I can't take making more ttc 'friends' only to have them outstrip me as well.

If you had success in 2011 I am very happy for you, but I need to reassess the way I deal with this process, as my previous way doesn't seem to be working.