We've decided that we're not going to pursue having a baby through IVF for a while, perhaps indefinitely. As the process has gone on I've felt more and more that it wasn't/isn't the right course for us, at least at this time. There are other things going on that I need to focus on, and that will take us into the next year at least.
Because of this decision, I've also decided to stop blogging, and for the most part to stop reading within the ALI community. I'm going to leave the site up, but I will disable comments soon as I don't want the blog to become a dumping ground for advertising.
My decision to step away from the ALI community has been difficult, but I've found that blogging, and reading other blogs has made me more introspective and involved in my infertility than I perhaps would have been otherwise. The same goes for me and journalling. I become far more tangled up in my feelings when I'm writing them down.
Blogging, and my continued failure to have a baby, has made me very aware of my complex feelings connected to the whole thing, and for that I'm grateful. I'm also grateful to everyone for their kind, thoughtful comments over the year or so I've been blogging on this issue.
The nature of the posts on this blog means that I don't feel comfortable reworking it to another topic. It's a shame but anonymity is important to me, especially to a lot of people in my personal life who don't know about our infertility. If I start blogging on some other topic, I will post a link on this site, but at the moment I don't know if I will.
Thanks again to everyone for their support, and I'm hoping that your journey to have a child goes more smoothly than mine has so far!